Yesterday I actually posted the Making of JF, so here I am again today. Posting it did take courage and a bit of time, but it was worth it. When I say courage, what do I mean? From my short time as an Army Cadet, I learned that courage was not to be above fear, but to fear and to face what you fear. For example, one that the military teaches: if one fears death (common among humans), one can put themself in harms way (with the right amount of sanity, protection, and reason) and face their fear, you will be a couragous person. What usually goes through a person's mind is that since your survival rate is high, there's no reason to fear. What there is to fear is the probability. Your future life (friends, wife, kids, job, etc) has been reduced to a probability (one of my rants long explained without proper backing that the Cold War was as bad as WW2 because the fate of the Earth was reduced to a probability that two extremely ill-tempered people would not act rashly). But then if you die, you won't mind much, will you? More logically, a person might fear that something terrible will happen to him/her and that s/he will have to live with it. Anyway, the courage that I displayed yesterday was simple, yet profound. I fear that my life will be waste. I fear that my words will amount to nothing for me or for anyone else. I fear that I will change my mind in the future and that the words I speak are lies. So I try to keep on topics that are important whether I get them right or not, and I try to think them through. Much of what I say is subjective rather than objective. For example: "Speaking freely is a right that I hold very close to my revolver." That is a fairly subjective sentence. It does not say anything that a person could refute very easily. It says something about myself. While others may agree or disagree for themselves, it is true about me. If you find something that is not true in these rants, I would not be very shocked. I think as quickly as I can think and I write as quickly as I can type. Also, you must appreciate the millions of characters that I put in JF. The data file is in fact ~ 1.7 MB which means that I have about 0.3 million words. If all of them are true, I would be very surprised. If half of them are logical, I'd laugh. If one tenth are understandable by a person who doesn't know me, I'd probably call that person a genius.
So, I finally posted AS3DMD 4.17. See it up on the AS3DMD website. It supports xml, tar data files, and milkshape models. Bla bla bla. This is short because I haven't posted on JF for a month and I'm just trying to build enough courage to post again. The main problem is starting. Once I've stopped doing JF even one night, I can't start. Night after night I find anything else to do and it's not cool. Talking about not cool, I just looked at my bank account balance. There's not enough to pay my tuition even with my parent's generous contribution. This is to become a lesson in economics: I have two resources credit and debit. A person can pay for anything, but specifically any debts, rent, and phone with debit. A person can purchase items and pay for tuition with credit. By jumping through a few hoops, a person can get a cash advance on credit and put it in debit at a high rate of interest. My credit balance is $1,000. My debit balance is $2,400. I need to pay for $1,994 tuition, $340 rent, and $80 groceries. No problem, right? Wrong. Stupidly, I paid for rent and groceries with debit. That takes me down to $1980 in debit and $1,000 in credit. How do I pay my tuition? Uh oh! Cash advance from credit. I transferred $1,000 from credit to debit. Cash advance takes 7-10 days plus 3 days transit plus one day bank time. My tuition is due in 4 days. I have $0 in credit, $1980 in debit. I am screwed. But wait! Can I call one one of my smaller reserves? I only counted the $1,000 on my high limit card. Maybe I have a $500 limit card that can grant me $100 to pay tuition which I can pay back... Uh huh. Knowledge of credit cards and economics saved the day.
Update: AS3D Collision Works works! I spent eight hours today trying to find the problem. I finally found that the inBox wasn't working. Wtf? I messed with it and I did this:
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Whatd'ya know? Another Making of JF not posted. I'm going for a record of pages written and never published.
